Welcome to my bog!  If you found me, then you probably know me.  I have not blogged for years, and with everything happening in 2020 I decided that it may help with my anxiety!  So here I am.

This blog will be about everything, hence the name.  I was not sure where to begin so, I found a photo of my Max and thought I would begin here.  Max was our Golden retriever that we have had since 2009.  In February of this year, he was diagnosed with Cancer, and we were told he only had at most three months.  We should just take him home, and love him and let him eat whatever he wanted.  So Alan and I did just that.  It was so hard watching him go down hill though.  In May we finally said goodbye, and I must say, I miss him something awful.  He was my good and loyal friend.  He slept with me, and comforted me.

I find the house so quiet, and it is sad!  We still have our crazy cats Finn and Salem, and trust there will be other posts about those crazy two!  2020 started out sort of quietly honestly, I was working for Enterprise and taking care of Jackson during the week for Nichole and Dustin.  Then COVID-19 happened and life as we knew it changed so drastically, I am still reeling.  

I was laid off on May 15th and began the process like so many other Americans to get unemployment.  That took some time, but finally it came through.  Alan continued to work and so we just did our best to adjust to all of the change.  My anxiety from work diminished greatly.  I felt calmer, listening to customers scream and yell all day long takes its toll trust me.

I have fibromyalgia and it has been a bear since March, there are days I can barely get out of bed!  Such a struggle that is.  Constant pain, and stiffness can be a real downer some days.  Jax helps, he is always a joy, and smiles and love he brings to this house well!  Nothing is better!

  If there is one thing I have learned over the years, is that time keeps ticking, even when your life is upside down.  I am hoping that my blog will help to get out some of the feeling about all that is going on!  There are days I think I may explode with emotion lol!  So I really am not sure what to expect going forward, this blog may jump all over the place LOL.  

One thing is for sure, I have to get back into the habit of blogging as it has been since 2012.  Wow, right after that, Mom had moved in with us, and then she had her stroke in Nov of that year.  Then in Feb 2014 I left OSF to help care for her, and did until 2016 when she went to the nursing home, and of course passed away Labor Day 2017.  Just weeks, before Jackson arrived.  I miss her so much.

Time, is a strange thing, sometimes it seems like it has been forever ago, and other times, it feels like just yesterday!  I know I am nearing 60, and that is not even something I can comprehend LOL.  My body feels it I suppose, but my mind certainly does not! So today, marks the day I blog my heart!

Kristin